No matter what I say you are going to do whatever it is that is you want to do so have fun

    I made an appointment to confirm this pregnancy & it turns out the next appointment they have free is on my birthday so I will go then happy birthday me.
    Later after I made that appointment Erik & I went to Wal-mart  to get his check cashed. While he was waiting in line I decided to go to the bathroom & when  did  found out that my period had started & as we all know that is not supposed to happen while you are pregnant so needless to say it scared the shit out of me. Now I have been looking it up on-line all night & it turns out some women still have one the first month or two of their pregnancy but it is still strange & probably not that good for the baby.

so sorry I have not said anything in a few days but I have had a lot to deal with a lot of stuff here as it tends to but this is worse then usual.My  fiancé's dog just had to be put to sleep because of cancer he was supposed to have two more months left but he took a turn for the worst yesterday morning.They have had him for a long time he was one of their first dogs.Now all the other dogs are just running around the house looking for him.It was amazing how close Erik's mother was to that dog she seems to treat them like her children now that the others are living on there own.

I took a test today & it said I was not pregnant but I took two in the hospital & they said I was so I think I miscarried again but I am going to take care of myself like I am pregnant till I know for sure.

well I had a seizure a few days ago so my mother took my to the hospital where they did a pregnancy test on me & it was a slight positive. Yes it is true  that the doctors might be wrong but I am so scared they are not.I don't know if my body can support an embryo .

    Man I almost forgot that today is my mother's birthday. It was Erik's father Rodney's Birthday 2 weeks ago & Erik's Brother Nate's birthday 1 week ago witch he happened to get a DUI on .Then Erik's is next week.My brother's next month mine is  a few days after that.   man they are all together. I just can't keep track of them all.  

My Erik is home he got back a few days ago & I have been with him.He is going to live at his parent's house for a few months & I am gong to live with my mother but right now. Living apart is not want but you do what you have to do. I am at his house so I have a faster connection. I get to spend the weekends at his house he just picks me up on his way home from his new job.
   

today my father actually had the nerve to call me & say that he could not believe that I was actually going to marry Erik & that Erik had quit his job after one day witch was kind of true he was fired & that was before he had even called Erik & asked him about it.  

Now Erik had a good reason for quitting that job when he did. Ok  I will explain he has terrible eyesight & when he woke up he had a a horrible eye infection in his right eye & he still had his contacts in so it got on his right contact it was covered in this goo (because I am sure you wanted to know that)& he is out of right contacts so he can't see to drive & at this job he has to see tiny things  he can't buy more contacts until next week when he gets the last paycheck from his last job he has  that place wold  not let him miss more then one day of training so they fried him
but what really bothers me is what my dad said

well it turns out my dad is just stupid well I don't know he invited us to move down there while he not only has someone else living ine the house but th house is about to be foreclosed on if he dose not make the payments witch he can't because he dose not have the money not that her acts like he cares he goes out to eat for every single meal so he is just blowing the money he has as fast as he earns it & he has found a place for himself to stay but that will leave Erik & Will out on their butts Will can't afford to live anywhere else he has child support & alimony & also from what I hear his kid lives over 5 mils away & he tries to see him every week that adds up Then Erik just works to hard to support both of us to afford much right now

oh yeah & then I had another siezure but that was nothing big & the least of my worries right now

Someone actually hacked into the the epilepsy foundation site & made it so that if you go to any link on the site will take you to a site with flashing lights with give a lot of people with seizures well seizures. What do they just think it is funny I mean a seizure can kill you. I am so lucky flashing lights don't make me have a seizures they just give me migraines also that Erik told me about it before I had to find out for myself.Of course the people the run that site promise to fix it as soon as they can.

1 - name: Celia Marie Levesque
2 - birthday: July 10, 1985
3 - Birthplace: Providence Rhode Island
4 - Hometown: Knoxville TN
5 - Current location: Knoxville TN
6 - Right or left handed: Right
7 - Siblings: 1 brother
8 - Children: not that I know of
9 - Eye color: greenish blue
10 - Hair color: blackish brown
11 - Height: 5'3
12 - weight: not going to tell you
13 - Occupation: none
14 - your heritage: I am white
15 - Shoes you wore today: it is 8:00 just slippers
16 - Your perfect pizza: jut cheese
17 - Last thing you thought about before going to bed: I can't wait to see Erik 
18 - First thought when you woke up: it is early 
19 - Your bedtime: none
20 - your best feature: my butt
21 - Your worst feature: my teeth
22 - Pepsi or Coke: Coke
23 - Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
24 - Hamburger or hotdog: hamburger
25 - Propane or charcoal: charcoal
26 - Ketchup or mustard: ketchup
27 - potato or macaroni salad: potato salad
28 - McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
29 - Kmart or Wal-Mart: Wal-Mart it is closer
30 - NFL or college: neither
31 - do you smoke: no
32 - do you drink: no
33 - Do you swear: yes
34 - Do you use drugs: well not realy depends who you ask
35 - Have you ever been in love: yes
36 - Are you married: no
37 - Have you ever said I love you and didn’t mean it: yes
38 - What did you want to be when you grew up: photographer
39 - Do you believe in yourself: some
40 - Do you get along with your parents: eh it depends
41 - Do you play an instrument: no
42 - Ever been beat up: yes
43 - Ever shoplifted: yes
44 - Ever been called a tease: yes
45 - Ever had a one night stand: yes a few
46 - What’s your clothing/personal style: don’t have one
47 - piercing/where: just my ears now
48 - tattoos/what kind: blue rose on my foot
49 - In one word describe yourself: sick
50 - Have you been baptized: yes
51 - What’s your sign: Cancer
52 - Do you believe in God: yes but I don't pick a religion
53 - Target or kohls: target
54 - What kind of car do you drive: do not
55 - Do you like your job: don't have one
56 - What high school did you attend: Central & Center
57 - Did you graduate: went to an extra year so I could
58 - Have you ever made someone cry: of course
59 - What is your favorite local bar/club: don't have one
60 - Bowl, bong, or joint: they are all good for me so I don't pick if you don't believe me look it up
61 - Bottle or draft: don't drink
62 - bud light or miller light: don't drink
63 - Tom or Jerry: Jerry
64 - cat or dog: dog
65 - Are you wearing a necklace right now/what kind: yes it is Sapphire & silver
66 - ring/what kind: yes engagement
67 - Paris or Nicole: nether
68 - dozen roses or box of chocolate: dozen roses it is better for me
69 - Bert or Ernie: Ernie he dose not have a stick up his butt
70 - Roseanne or home improvement: Home Improvement
71 - Kurt Cobain or Axle rose: Kurt Cobain
72 - Janis Joplin or joss stone: if I have to pick Janis Joplin
73 - What street did you grow up on: Sutherland AVE.
74 - What was the name of your first pet: Touepee do not ask
75 - Song you want played at your wedding: that has not happened yet
76 - Song you would like played after your gone: don't want to think about that
77 - Victoria’s Secret or Fredrick’s of Hollywood: Victoria’s secret. Fredrick’s of Hollywood is to trashy
78 - Favorite cartoon character: I like Gir
79 - Gwen Steffani or Fergie: Gwen Steffani before she started working alone her dose not thinks well for herself
80 - What color is the underwear you’re wearing right now: it has spots purple & blue on white
81 - Thong, boy short, brief, or bikini: bikini
82 - One piece or two: two
83 - Ginger or Maryanne: don't know I don't watch them
84 - Sunflower or daisy: daisy
85 - night or day: night
86 - sun or stars: stars I said night
87 - Motley crew or Poison: motley crew
88 - Who was president when you were born: Reagan & I kept up with him
89 - If you could change your name what would you choose: I like my name
90 - Family feud or name that tune: family Feud I guess but I never watched name that tune
91 - What color are your toenails right now: clear
92 - Fingernails: clear
93 - High heels or sneakers: sneakers
94 - Pjs or naked: somewhere in between
95 - What turns you on: I am not going to share that
96 - What turns you off: seeing my body
97 - Do you prefer to be on top or bottom: top if you must know
98 - What is the first thing you notice when you meet someone: height
99 - Nightmare on Elm St or Friday the 13th: Nightmare on Elm ST
100 - Brownies or cupcakes: brownies
101 - Favorite perfume: Dream Angles Heavenly
102 - favorite color: Blue
103 - Favorite quote: it is better to be hated for who you are then loved for whom your not
104 - favorite friend: Angela
105 - what is your husband/wife’s middle name: I do not have one but my Erik's middle name is Andrew
106 - if you had just one wish what would it be: get rid of these Seizures
107 - if you could change one thing about yourself what would it be: well from the last question is that not clear I am sad for you
108 - Nicknames: Cecile, Cee, Cee Cee, don’t pick them up & other I don't want to say
109 - Pool or pond: pool
110 - Potato chips or pretzels: potato chips
111 - Salt or pepper: salt
112 - 60's or 70's: 60's
113 - Are you faithful to the one you’re with: yes?
114 - Opera or Dr. Phil: Dr. Phil I guess
115 - Nike or converse: Nike
116 - Favorite subject in school: History
117 - Favorite TV show: House
118 - Dave or Jay: who?
119 - Apple or banana: banana
120 - Applebee’s or Frickers: Applebee’s happy
121 - Ever shop at Goodwill: when I can just no underpants
122 - Drumstick or push up: huh oh ok me got it push up I guess
123 - 50 cent or 2pac: ewww
124 - What is your favorite radio station: don’t really have one
125 - What did you dream about last night: woke up to much to dream

Now some of you might already know about this but um I just don’t know it was to strange to ignore.

    The tale of the tail end may have reached an end. At least that's what folks in Valentine, Neb., hope after someone slathered his bare backside — and front side — with Vaseline, then left prints on windows of businesses, schools and churches. Rewards offered through Crime Stoppers failed to halt the pants-dropping perpetrator's spree, which began in May.
    The local Midland News newspaper called the vandal or vandals "lewd, lubricated, lurching lunatics." A radio station dubbed them "the butt cheek bandits.""It's just a weird deal, but it's weird enough to cause a little bit of concern," Valentine Police Chief Ben McBride. "Who in their right mind would do something like that?" McBride has fielded about 20 reports.
    The last official one came in mid-October, although a Valentine businessman said he saw a print Thursday morning on the door of a dental clinic. "If I hadn't heard about this previously, I wouldn't have had a clue what it was," said Duane Gudgel of the Plains Trading Company bookstore and gift shop Norman Nollett, co-owner of Nollett Electric, noticed greasy prints on the plate glass windows of his business in September. He didn't think much of it until he heard a radio report about the spree. "I don't know what kind of people it takes to do that," Nollett said. "Someone with a weird sense of humor, I guess."  
    The wrongdoing is more disgusting than destructive. There has been no physical damage, although producing the printings would involve indecent exposure. McBride said that one or more males are suspected and that there may have been copycat printings. There was a possible sighting of a suspect, described as a black-haired, 6-foot male. People have reacted more with humor than alarm. But the police chief said he wants to put an end to the rear-ended high jinks. And cooler weather may put a chill on the crime.
    "We would like to find the guy because you'd like to see what the intent is," McBride said. "Was it just someone trying to joke or something much more?"

well today Erik went down to Florida without me yes yes I know I will follow next month & we get to be together then. In no way dose that mean I have to be happy about it.When he left he left me a stuffed animal a big cookie monster that he has had since he was little.Cookie monster is almost half as tall as me but it has short arms so when Erik called me because he was in a traffic jam I told him that he had to come back home because cookie monster dose not hug back,he just laughed & said we would be together soon.

Well we just moved & I am going to stay up here for a month for my medical insurance but Erik has to head down to Florida this weekend for his new job they need him now.So I am going to be staying with my mother & she only has dial up in her house so I will not be on here as much this month it is just to slow. So sorry about that.

Hi, my name is: Celia

But you can call me: Celia

My fav. color is: blue

 My high school was: there where 2 Central & Center

My hair is: dark brown

My birthday is: July 10 why do you wanna get me something

My middle name is: Marie

 I have a hard time understanding: Most anything

If you spent the night at my house: I would wonder how you got in

The one person who can drive me nuts is: I don't think I could pick one they are all so good at t

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: Food

Most recent thing someone else bought me: Candy

Ever been in love: I sure do hope so or this ring is a lie

Believe in love at first sight: yes

What is your bed size: Double about to be King

Do you prefer writing in pen or pencil: pencil  nobody needs to know where ya screw up

Coke or Pepsi: Coke

Favorite subject in school: sitting on the couch all day

Last book you read: legacy of the dog

What’s your dream job: Photographer

What kind of car do you drive: I don't

Are you a better talker or better listener: listener

What do you miss most about childhood: if you could do it then you can do it now

How many times did it take you to pass your drivers test: never tried

How many kids do you want: 2

Can you cook: depends on what you mean by cook, but I don't need to cook I live with a great chef.

Have you been to Disney World: no

How many TRUE best friends do you have: 1,2 if you want to count my Erik

Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth:cry over truth

 Who’s the last person you got into a argument with: My mother

How much do looks matter to you in a guy: 50%

Are you close with your mom and dad: mom not dad

Do you tell your parents everything:  no

What’s your favorite color to wear: blue or black

 Who was the last person in your bedroom: well I don't know who left the room first Erik or me

What are you freakishly obsessed with: my teddy bear collecting (try it before you make fun of it)

What piercings do you want: none don't need anymore holes

Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail: I would pass(there was that pee the said I was on LSD & no I was not it was just my normal meds)

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now: yes hope so he is talking to me

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in: before

Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower: yes we all have

Your favorite sport to watch: no just no

Ever had stitches: yes

Have you ever given money to a homeless person: yes

Ever run over an animal: with what?

would you kiss someone of same sex for $100: yes I got the ok
More of a coffee or alcohol drinker: coffee

Ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire:no

 Do you snore: no I can't they took it all out but I do drool

All together, how many people have you kissed: cant count

 Are you comfortable with your body: no

Whats your stand on gay marriage: go ahead have fun

What about abortions: It is wrong

    It s our last weekend in the apt so to forget about that the guys got us some deal from Papa John's that has 3 large pizza in it 24 chicken strips & 2 24 ounce sprites so we can eat that while we watch a House marathon. & when we all eat that we can all get nice & fat. 

I am so lucky today I had another seizure rolled off the bed & hit my head on Erik's dresser.

    This last week we have both been busy havening consecutive break-downs I threw my pill bottles at the floor & they hit the ground so hard a lot of the pills broke & they are now all over the bedroom & that was just my worst so far but then last night Erik took or neighbor's grill & threw it off the balcony but they did deserve it they totally ruined ours used it for an ash tray then they are total asses well she is not just him & his friends.

    Well I'm getting off track all of this is because we are both so stressed out no one will give him a straight answer about this job he is looking for even though one of them is through one of his best friends & we have leases then a week until this lease is up in a few days & my medical plan is falling trough if the right person doesn't get my case they are going to stop covering me so I have to hurry to get all my meds renewed & then find a new plan.

    lucky me lucky me when my bad luck comes back apparently it hits hard (the softball on my head & my black eye will attest to that)
    Well I had a migraine & since I could not sleep I decided to take a nice hot shower.So of course when I got n I found that the tub was clogged but I just  thought  eh it is ok  after my shower I fill up the tub anyway.I just was not in the mood to fix it then.  
   Well I was just in there doing my thing & lucky me I had a seizure in the shower I think I hit my eye on the faucet thing then the side of me head on the bottom of the shower when the tub was full.Yeah I'm glad I woke up when I did.Tomorrow Erik & I are getting some of those tub flowers.

    My life has has been pretty bland as of late. I am not complaining at all it is all good.Right now I have to get all of my medical & insurance information together to send to my father so he can get me the right insurance.Before he just guesses & gets a plan without finding out what I need. (if you have any tips tell me I am so lost)I mean I know it has to  that cover all the right kinds doctor & meds.Once I get this moving down there is more of a sure thing.I mean why my coverage has moved I have to.